I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can (eBook)

Barbara Gordon's groundbreaking memoir tells the extraordinary story of a woman who has it all, or thinks she does: a career as an Emmy-award-winning documentary producer, a man she loves, a world of friends, and a beautiful apartment in Manhattan.
But beneath the facade, Barbara's life is spinning out of control. In spite of the pills prescribed by her doctor, a nameless terror disrupting her daily life intensifies until she is besieged by crippling anxiety attacks. A formerly strong, independent, successful woman, Barbara's life becomes a nightmare of paralysis and fear.
When Barbara finds herself unable to leave her apartment or walk the streets of New York alone, she decides to take charge of her life. She doesn't want pills, she wants answers. Instead of ending her fears, quitting the medicine leads to the unraveling of what she thought was her perfect life, and Barbara becomes a casualty of a flawed and inept mental health system. Barbara had often spoken for the voiceless in her films, but she suddenly finds herself powerless, without a voice of her own. Though she feels frightened and misunderstood, the tenderness and love of another young patient, Jim, helps Barbara rediscover her voice and her identity.
In the years since her memoir was first published, thousands of readers all over the world have read her book, followed her descent into hell, traveled with her along the bumpy road to recovery, and celebrated as she creates a new life. I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can is a strikingly honest look at a life gone off the rails. Throughout her journey, Gordon's hope and strength make her an incredible heroine worth rooting for.

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Discover the captivating journey of a woman who almost lost everything on her road to recovery. An Emmy-award-winning documentary producer, Barbara Gordon has a man she loves, an amazing group of friends, and a stunning apartment in the heart of Manhattan; yet, she is barely aware of the fact that her life is about to spiral out of control. A nameless terror begins to disrupt her daily life, and in spite of the prescriptions from her doctor, Barbara is consumed by crippling anxiety and panic attacks. Who once had been a strong and successful woman had now become a shadow of her former self, engulfed in paralysis and fear. When Barbara finds herself unable to leave her apartment, she decides to take action into her own hands. She doesn't want more pills; she wants answers. But this is only the start of her downfall-as Barbara stops taking her medicine, her so-called perfect life further unravels at an alarming rate. She quickly learns of the inept mental health system in the United States, but ultimately finds solace in another patient who helps her rediscover her voice and identity.I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can is a strikingly honest look at a life gone off the rails. Throughout her journey, Gordon's hope and strength make her an incredible heroine worth rooting for.