CHAPTER ONE:
Introduction
The breezes at dawn
Have secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep!
~ Rumi
About Me and This Book
This book started with the click of a pen.
Actually, it was a persistent clicka-clicka-clicka noise that woke me up in the pre-dawn hours of a spring day in 2014. My son had crawled into bed with us for the usual morning cuddle, but instead of playing games on my phone or pretending to sleep like he normally does, he had found a pen.
Clicka-clicka-clicka.
I should let you know I had been receiving ‘pen’ messages from multiple sources over the months leading up to the morning with all the clicking, but I had neatly ignored them. I knew I wanted to write a book about my experiences teaching Reiki someday, but I didn’t feel ready. I was delaying, avoiding, hiding.
I knew I had created something magical in my courses, something beyond me, something changing lives before my eyes.
I had opened up and channelled the information for the courses, and people were recovering from addictions, healing depression, and suicide ideation, and accessing depths of happiness that were stable, resilient, and real. I knew I had to find a way to bring this work to a larger audience, to people who might not know about Reiki or have any interest in learning it. There were fundamental lessons within the material that were innately transformative. There was a book in me. I knew it. Someday.
I might have stayed there, teaching comfortably small classes in the comfort of my friend’s living room. Hiding. But I had enough experience with the consequences of not following my Dharma, my life path and purpose, to know that, sooner or later, I would need to cast off the last of the smallness and really be who I am.
This is the occupational hazard of people who teach others transformational work; they must also transform. I teach others to follow their own good advice and to embrace their ‘bigness’, and now, I was being called to do the same. Clicka-clicka-clicka.
That you're reading this at all means you know how that morning played out. I rose from bed. I did not go back to sleep. I listened to the ancient Rumi poem, quivering in the morning stillness, echoing in my brain, and I wrote. I wrote for hours. I wrote not clearly knowing what I was to write, but just that I must write. I only needed to show up, and the Divine calling me to the page would do the rest. That was the deal. I got out of the way. The Divine showed up. I wrote.
The book that has emerged from that process of surrender has changed me more than I can say. The wisdom that wrote itself on the page taught me to love my body (once and for all), to trust my ability to channel the Divine, and to really know that I cannot hide this material from the world to preserve my timid ego. I can help. This I know.
The material in this book works. I know this because it worked for me, and it is working for my students. This stuff I teach heals and transforms lives. It creates happiness. It dissolves fear and worry and anger. It boosts worthiness and faith and kindness. It is gratitude creating more gratitude. Love creating more love. It is magic.
“This is the moment where sh#t gets real.” I tell my students. This is the kind of book that requires doing, rolling up your metaphorical sleeves and getting to work. It is not a gathering-dust-on-the-shelf book. It is a workbook in the truest sense of the word. You must do the work.
The work is not hard, but it may not always be easy. The work is fun, though you might sometimes resist it. The work is gentle, but you might not always like it.
It works.
Try. Do. Change.
Clicka-clicka-clicka
Master Usui, Me, and Instant Messaging the Universe
Master Mikao Usui was the founder of Reiki and is my ever present spiritual guide. He lived in Japan from 1860 to 1925 and created the Usui Shiki Ryoho System of Natural Healing. I learned to channel his clear guidance after a series of experiences that opened up my connection to the divine. Mainly, I had to develop the needed desire to contact him, the belief I could do it, and the knowing that I was worthy to receive his wisdom directly.
I had several “getting out of the way” experiences that made it possible to fully acknowledge my skill in communicating with non-physical beings. Up till then, I had sporadic communications with the spirit world, but nothing so clear and consistent as I experience now.
Now, it is like switching the channel or writing an email and getting an instant reply. Hmm, maybe not email, but instant messaging? Yes, that is it, I can now IM any non-physical being in the universe and get a clear reply. This is how I was able to write much of this book.
I began to develop the ability to get out of the way while writing when I was finishing up my Master’s thesis in ecology in 2009. I had a hard deadline to finish my thesis by a certain date or I would not pass. I was able to write a 365-page manuscript in about six weeks. I dutifully showed up at the page and got myself completely out of the way. Even though the writing was scientific, technical writing, I would sit in the coffee shop, open my laptop, and say “Hit it, God!” I would then write sentence after sentence, until I needed to go home to nurse my 9-month old son. Quite the way to finish a hard science manuscript! But finish, I did. And quite well too. It all taught me to stand aside and let the words flow.
Getting out of the way in all of my writing had then become the norm for me after finishing my thesis. It all flowed naturally. It was the easiest way for me to set aside all worry, all fear, all apprehension, and just allow what was needed to be written to be written. It was an easy extension to begin to ask direct questions of spiritual beings that I trusted for the advice I needed.
I began channelling during my writing sessions in 2012, after a series of family tragedies rocked me to my foundations. Two very dear family members died within two weeks of each other. It was devastating. Days later, I learned my niece would require open heart surgery, my son caught a severe stomach virus, and my husband got kidney stones. It was a very turbulent time, and I did my best to reach for the light in the midst of so much despair.
I began, at first, writing questions to Abraham, a group of entities that the amazing Esther Hicks channels as part of their Law of Attraction books and workshops. I had a thirst to understand why these terribly sad circumstances were happening all at once and how I was to ever get out from underneath the mountain of grief that laid in their wake. I would write down a question troubling me and then write the response I ‘heard’ in my mind or Inner Ear. I would record the information as faithfully as I could, trying my best not to alter a single word or phrase as it appeared in my mind.
I gained a great deal of solace and insight into the purpose of these difficult times. By just talking to these wise ones on the other side, I felt relief. Soon I wrote to my departed loved ones, and their responses soothed the deep pain and grief overwhelming my heart. They were not gone. Not even a little. They were more full, more vibrant, more alive than ever. They were still there! They are still here, now, cheering me on as I write these words, encouraging me to get past my nervousness about exposing this private part of my life that is admittedly a little weird. Or, maybe a lot weird!
It took a little while to realize that, if I could channel my departed loved ones, then I could channel any being that was non-physical. I did not have to wait; I could talk to any of them, to all of them. I began writing to Master Usui, and he immediately came through loud and clear. The advice was always neat, to the point, and immeasurably helpful. He guided me in creating my Reiki courses. Together, the format of the classes expanded from what I was originally taught by my teachers to incorporate all of the current information in mind-body medicine with the traditional Reiki teachings.
Reiki used to be taught over years, but today, it is most often learned over the course of two weekends. I compromised and developed 4 eight week courses, which allow my students to reach the Master level in one year. Master Usui very clearly guided the material and meditations in the courses. The result was a series of courses that not only taught people Reiki, but also began to heal their lives significantly. I began to ask myself how I could share the magic of the courses with a wider audience.
What was it within the courses that was allowing people the opportunity to transform their pain into wisdom? I looked for similarities in the people getting the greatest success. What they shared in common, besides a firm resolve to change, was that they all applied the Reiki Ideals to their daily lives. When I taught them about the Ideals, they didn’t just parrot the words....