I raised my head and my sleepy gaze followed the line of interlocking black hairs that trailed up his belly.

He sucked his teeth in a long steupse.

While he’s there talking he flipped me over and sat on my face. Shoved his laar straight down my gullet.

I stopped breathing just in time. He kept ramming until I gagged. Put a shilling on my mattress and all man come the same way. So long as they don’t rough me up where it shows, I ain’t vexed. Otherwise, they’re interfering with my livelihood. When he’s ready Boysie’s hand can be like a hammer. I tired warn him. Do your do but leave my face alone. And best not to mark up my leg or my hand either. A little licks every now and then. Fair enough. Back, backside, stomach, tot-tots is all right. Dave does go crazy if a mark showing and I didn’t tell him so he could charge extra. Them times I does run or else it’s more licks on top of what I done take.

Boysie shifted and jooked me from behind. Forget all the long talk. In that position he’s finishing in two-twos. Of course I ah-ahed and ooh-oohed as if this jook sweet like sugar cane. My noise gets him going. Shame he can’t finish looking at me.

Afterwards, eyes half open, he tugged the chadar to cover up, and propped himself on the crocus bag pillows, stuffed thick and firm with dried coconut husk.

By now he should know I ain’t making joke but he can’t help himself.

He skinned he teeth. Soon as he leaves I best clean up this room, yes. Them dirty wares belong in a bucket ready to wash by the standpipe.

I watched him cut eye.

I buss out laughing.

Boysie saying I is he own when two of we know that by the time he leave and reach the road he done forget me. Until that laar needs a warm hole I might as well not exist. I played like I was vex vex.

He pawed at me until I offered his greedy mouth my tot-tots. He had a dry suckle half-hour ago. It doesn’t matter. Each time he latches on it’s as if he never got breast before. Can’t seem to help he-self. I gave him a minute or two on each side then gently tugged to get away.

He grabbed and suckled hard then kissed me like he was leaving Trinidad.

Boysie looked like he’d sucked lime. I poked he chest.

Boysie doesn’t give a shit about how much ruction he’s bringing on my head. In fact, it’s the direct opposite. He over love a fight. Feel he’s a big badjohn. I must ask him how much years he have. Can’t be more than a year or two above me so, what, twenty-two, twenty-three. And that right there is the problem. Young and strong. Older fellas don’t carry on so. They understand not to cause commess. I treat them nice; they pay and crawl back where they come from until the next time. Boysie thinks giving me sweet eye and bringing a little food does spring open my legs for free.

I wanted to wash myself and sweep this place. But he’s only play asking for water and pushing me with he foot. Joke or no joke, I fell off the mattress and landed on my bottom. Lucky thing this house leepayed just the other day. Say what you want, I does make sure every few months this hut’s leepayed good and proper. A regular, nice Indian fella, at least thirties, he does help me. Together we mix cow dung with white mud from the river, throw in some water and use that to plaster the walls and ground, smoothing it with a cloth.

Suddenly an elbow jooked my side.

I pulled myself off the floor and took my cool time zipping my dress. What he go do me? I felt a hand rubbing my leg before he yanked me and I fell on top him. He watched me straight in my eye then kissed me hard. I ain’t go lie. That look does tingle even a hard-back woman like me.

The sun was sweeping a gentle light under the door and throwing tiny circles on the walls.

Boysie stretched like a stray cat.

I picked up an empty bucket and eased the door open to a glowing orange sky. By the roadside was a standpipe. Filled to the top and that bucket is nuff clean water for the whole day. As I turned to walk back I heard my name called.

My stomach dropped and my skin felt instantly cold. Only one person says my name like it’s dog they’re shooing. When that voice says jump, I only ever open my mouth to ask, how high? And don’t think I’m the only one ’fraid him. Dave is the kind of fella you’re never sure will hug you up or cuff you down. All depends on he mood. And watch nah, he’s a proper boss man in Port of Spain. When it comes to running girls, gambling, protection money, that kindna thing, whole parts of the city locked down tight in he hand.

Dave put he two hands on he hips like a market woman.

I was talking loud loud, hoping please, Ram Sita Ram, Boysie had managed to slip out. If he hadn’t by now he would be stuck. They’ll see him clear. My hut doesn’t have a window he could jump out of to make tracks through the bush. Leave by the door now and Dave’s bound to spot him.

His bloodshot eyes bored into mine.