Where She Went

Gayle Forman is an award-winning, internationally bestselling author and journalist. She is the author of Just One Day and Just One Year, and the companion e-novella Just One Night, as well as the New York Times bestsellers If I Stay and Where She Went. She lives in Brooklyn, New York, with her husband and daughters.

A TWIST OF FATE? My gaze returns to earth and when it does, it's her eyes I see. Not the way I used to see them-around every corner, behind my own closed lids at the start of each day. Not in the way I used to imagine them in the eyes of every other girl I laid on top of. No, this time it really is her eyes. A photo of her, dressed in black, a cello leaning against one shoulder like a tired child. Her hair is up in one of those buns that seem to be a requisite for classical musicians. She used to wear it up like that for recitals and chamber music concerts, but with little pieces hanging down, to soften the severity of the look. There are no tendrils in this photo. I peer closer at the sign. YOUNG CONCERT SERIES PRESENTS MIA HALL. Also By Gayle Forman Sisters in Sanity If I Stay Just One Day Just One Year Just One Night (e-special) I Was Here Table of Contents A Twist of Fate? Also by Gayle Forman Title Page Copyright Page Dedication ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT NINE TEN ELEVEN TWELVE THIRTEEN FOURTEEN FIFTEEN SIXTEEN SEVENTEEN EIGHTEEN NINETEEN TWENTY TWENTY-ONE TWENTY-TWO TWENTY-THREE Acknowledgements Shuffle Lyrics Playlist Discussion Questions Special Excerpt from If I Stay Special Excerpt from Just One Day Special Excerpt from I Was Here SPEAK Published by the Penguin Group Penguin Group (USA) LLC 375 Hudson Street New York, New York 10014 USA Canada UK Ireland Australia New Zealand India South Africa China A Penguin Random House Company an imprint of Penguin Group (USA) Inc., 2011 Published by Speak, an imprint of Penguin Group (USA) Inc., 2012 promotes free speech, and creates a vibrant culture. Thank you for buying an authorized edition of this book and for complying with copyright laws by not reproducing, scanning, or distributing any part of it in any form without permission. You are supporting writers and allowing Penguin to continue to publish books for every reader. Forman, Gayle. Where she went / by Gayle Forman.-1st ed. p. cm. Sequel to: If I Stay Summary: Adam, now a rising rock star, and Mia, a successful cellist, reunite in New York and reconnect after the horrific events that tore them apart when Mia almost died in a car accident three years earlier. whether to live with her grief or join her family in death. ISBN: 978-1-101-47632-1 [1. Interpersonal relations-Fiction. 2. Emotional problems-Fiction. 3. Rock music-Fictional. 4. Violoncello-Fiction. 5. New York (NY) -Fiction.] I. Title. PZ7.F75876Wh 2011 [Fic] -dc22 2010013474 FOR MY PARENTS : for saying I can. It well may be that in a difficult hour, Pinned down by pain and moaning for release, Or nagged by want past resolution's power, I might be driven to sell your love for peace, Or trade the memory of this night for food. It well may be. I do not think I would. Excerpt from "Love is not all: it is not meat nor drink." BY EDNA ST. VINCENT MILLAY ONE Every morning I wake up and I tell myself this: It's just one day, one twenty-four-hour period to get yourself through. I don't know when exactly I started giving myself this daily pep talk-or why. It sounds like a twelve-step mantra and I'm not in Anything Anonymous, though to read some of the crap they write about me, you'd think I should be. I have the kind of life a lot of people would probably sell a kidney to just experience a bit of. But still, I find the need to remind myself of the temporariness of a day, to reassure myself that I got through yesterday, I'll get through today. This morning, after my daily prodding, I glance at the minimalist digital clock on the hotel nightstand. It reads 11:47, positively crack-of-dawn for me. But the front desk has already rang with two wake-up calls, followed by a polite-but-firm buzz from our manager, Aldous. Today might