Beyond the Veil; My Journey with a Prophet from Brooklyn to Beautiful - Diane Gardner

Beyond the Veil; My Journey with a Prophet from Brooklyn to Beautiful (eBook)

Diane Gardner (Autor)

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2020 | 1. Auflage
200 Seiten
Bookbaby (Verlag)
978-1-0983-2789-7 (ISBN)

This Book will take you on a trip with me to experience the very heart of God and his attentiveness to every detail in my life as he takes me beyond my fears, tears, and frustrations. This is a journey to discover what beautiful means to me; who beautiful is, why is she beautiful, when did she notice beautiful existed? Walk with me across the bridges of life to uncover what lies beyond the veil!

Walking alongside a Prophet is not the easiest thing to do because you are vulnerable to the things God wants to reveal to you about yourself! But when God allows you that most precious encounter it is never to expose you or to cause you embarrassment. It is His undivided invitation for you to be in his presence through his hand pick servant; to unveil the things in your life you may or may not be able to navigate out of on your own! He or She is an introduction to God's mouth piece, they are not there to speak for God but to help you understand and decipher what God has already spoken to you! Prayerfully this book will ignite the passion within you to seek out the voice of God and to break through those things that hinder your growth and free you from the veils that blind your vision!

Chapter IV: Fear Talks, Faith Walks!

Lesson I: Faith—Remove Fear and Trust God More

PC: Fine-tuning your faith means you are willing to endure the trials that come to strengthen your faith. Increasing your faith means being uncomfortable.

I confessed at this time that I walked in the spirit of timidity and fear.

I was instructed to write on index cards and stick them all over my house: the left side and right side of the mirrors, refrigerator, and bedroom door.

*I, Diane Yvette Gardner, will walk in BOLDNESS!

*My BOLDNESS is going to be challenged and I will accept the challenge!

I don’t know why but for some reason I felt a shift immediately and I began to walk in BOLDNESS!

As it was spoken and as I also knew it would happen, when I said “YES” to change, the challenges started coming. How many of us know that there are no new tricks from that clown the devil; just different illusions! This one weapon had been formed against me for over a decade and I was ready for God to put it to REST! Without giving the darkness too much exposure I will keep this account discreet! There’s a period in my life where I experienced abuse—verbal, physical, mental, and psychological. Most people don’t recognize abuse until it becomes physical and by then you’ve already been held prisoner by the psychological effects of the verbal and emotional abuse: these characteristics are fear, low self-esteem, suicidal thoughts, despair, depression, anxiety, and helplessness! You become paralyzed by your own fear of being killed or wanting to kill yourself! The echoes of tormenting words spoken to you when they lose control of their control! “If I can’t have you no one else will!” “I don’t give a“f**k” about either one of our lives; I’ll take us both out!” Threats, intimidating speech, erratic hand, and arm gestures. When Satan learns how to activate fear in you, he will use the most aggressive tactics that prove to work! I know that I am not fighting against the actual person but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places (Ephesians 6:12). So here I am forced to face my past and my fears.

As my past resuscitated itself out of the dead womb in my life, I was abruptly approached by my adult son who out of desperation wanted to know why I was keeping this ugly “secret” from him. You see he didn’t understand why I didn’t have a healthy co-parenting relationship or why there were no kumbaya (harmonious) moments that he could pull out of his memory bank between our “broken family.” As a parent, you feel like you have to protect your children’s emotions by keeping sin “hidden.” It never dawns on you that doing this very thing could repeat the cycle. My logic was I didn’t want to paint an ugly picture in their mind about something they were not at home to witness or about someone they loved. It was embarrassing, demeaning, and traumatizing, so I buried it and continued to survive for the sake and sanity of protecting my children’s “wholeness.” But at that moment my son was broken! His heart, and his emotions, he was torn between the loyalty of one parent and the love of the other. And I felt every bit of the helplessness I felt when I was in the relationship! I can remember these piercing words he said to me, with tears streaming down his face, “PLEASE tell me what happened to you? I need to know why at times I have a short temper and uncontrolled anger!” That was it!!! This generational curse was NOT going any further!!!

A Mother’s Prayer: Oh God, have mercy on my soul! Daddy, I lift my children up to you; I break every chain, every emotional tie, every elusive and vile spirit on assignment against my children. I bind the spirit of abuse, physical, mental, emotional, psychological, verbal, and the likes thereof. I cast out every stronghold designed to mask itself as love and affection! Devil, you can’t have my children!!! Oh God, you said in your word “Even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, And the prey of the terrible be delivered;

For I will contend with him who contends with you, And I will save your children. (Isaiah 49:25) God, I thank you for your word and your promise. I am not a perfect parent and I did my best to try and protect them from my choices but I feel like I FAILED!!! Daddy, I need you! I need you to repair the broken places, repair those areas that are damaged due to ME! God, help me to help my son! In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen!

God’s Response: MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER, I AM THE LIVING GOD! I AM IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING THAT PERTAINS TO YOU. TASTE AND SEE THE LORD IS GOOD. STAY AT MY FEET AND WATCH THE SALVATION OF THE LORD! I WILL DEAL WITH YOUR SON’S CONCERNS AND I WILL DEAL WITH YOU. I LOVE YOU AND I HAVE YOUR BEST INTEREST AT HEART. DO NOT WORRY OR FEAR. TRUST ME, STAND ON MY WORD AND NO MATTER WHAT THINGS LOOK LIKE, YOU WILL NOT FAIL! I AM THE LORD, YOUR GOD, AND I WILL HONOR EVERYTHING CONCERNING YOU! I KNOW WHAT WORRIES YOU, I KNOW WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN DEALING WITH FOR SO MANY YEARS. GIVE IT TO ME! THIS BATTLE WAS NEVER DESIGNED FOR YOU TO FIGHT, ONLY TO WAIT ON ME, ONLY TO SEEK ME FOR GUIDANCE, AND ONLY TO BEHOLD AS I FIGHT THIS BATTLE FOR YOU. I AM PATIENTLY WAITING FOR YOU TO FINALLY GIVE IT TO ME ONCE AND FOR ALL. DO NOT FRET OVER THIS; I HAVE ALWAYS KEPT YOU THROUGH IT. IT WAS DESIGNED TO ATTACK YOU BUT NEVER TO HARM YOU. YOU MUST RISE ABOVE FEAR, THE CLAMOR, THE OVER THINKING, THE ANGER, THE WORRY, AND GIVE THIS DISTRACTION TO ME! I WILL SHOW YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL HOW I DEAL WITH THIS. IT IS A DISTRACTION! I GOT YOU! (2 Chronicles 20:15).

God gave me five steps to help me in this process using Psalm 62:1-12

1—Acknowledge who God is to me! Verses 1 and 2

2—Deal with the assault, call it out! Verses 3 and 4

3—Don’t stay dwelling on the offender, remind myself again who God is and what He can do! Verses 5–7

4—Trust HIM and tell others why they should trust Him! Verses 8–10

5—Talk directly to God! Tell Him what you heard about his power and His love! Speak His promises back to Him! Verse 11 and 12

I cannot tell you that this delivered me from fear, but my fighting technique did change!

To PC (8:00 a.m.): This morning I kept giving my concerns to God but I kept seeing my son in my mind break down in an emotional state as I kept rehearsing my defense in my head. Even after I gave it to God it was a HUGE distraction!!! But while driving to work, I kept snapping out of it, taking captive every thought and praising God, talking even louder to him about His promises than my thoughts were trying to talk to me about my problem. And before I knew it, I was speaking in tongues saying every one of my children’s names out loud, and all of a sudden I began praying in English with BOLDNESS Casting EVERY demon back to hell, every root, and tentacle. I believe it was the translation of what was spoken in tongues because the prayer was SO different and forceful! By the time I finished, my heart was at peace and my mind stable. Good, God!!!! It was AWESOME, and God excitedly said to me, “THAT’S HOW YOU FIGHT! I GOT THIS! VENGEANCE IS MINE!” Hallelujah!!! I know the battle is not over but God already won this war….

PC: I’m extremely Proud of You! See it’s one thing to react out of Fear but when you Fight with BOLDNESS, you are prepared to take a few licks because in your mind and Spirit you know YOU’RE GOING TO WIN THE FIGHT!! I want you to consider Allowing the Truth to be told to your Son, at least as much Truth as he can handle because The Truth Shall Free Him from the hold that is on him! Now all you have to begin to do is Walk and React in BOLDNESS KNOWING THAT NO MATTER WHAT HE DOES OR SAYS, GOD HAS TOLD YOU HE’S GOT YOU.

*I revealed my truth to my son; of course, it was disputed but none of that mattered, I was FREE and my son was now able to understand why his mother’s heart beats the way it does. You see, because of this hidden sin my son could never understand why there wasn’t a functioning relationship, why I couldn’t be in the same space as my offender, or why I showed fear in my demeanor whenever they were around. Make no mistake, I forgave him a long time ago; I HAD TO. But forgiving someone does not stop the offense. I forgave so that I wouldn’t take my anger out on my children and so that I was free to love again! GLORY!!

If I had to sum up the lesson I learned on faith walking, I would have to say this was a milestone; this was my David and Goliath moment! You see there were several smaller steps I took by faith that catapulted me to the main battle. My prayer life changed, my studies gave me power, and my giving/sowing seed opened up a level of trust for God that enabled me to face my fears and carry out the things I was instructed to do. I cannot say that I will not have to face this giant again but what I do know is that MY God is bigger than ANY mountain, giant, man,...

Erscheint lt. Verlag	1.12.2020
Sprache	englisch
Themenwelt	Geisteswissenschaften ► Religion / Theologie ► Christentum
ISBN-10	1-0983-2789-6 / 1098327896
ISBN-13	978-1-0983-2789-7 / 9781098327897

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