Unsayable -  Annie Rogers

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2008 | 1. Auflage
320 Seiten
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In her twenty years as a clinical psychologist, Annie Rogers has learned to understand the silent language of girls who will not--who cannot--speak about devastating sexual trauma. Abuse too painful to put into words does have a language, though, a language of coded signs and symptoms that conventional therapy fails to understand. In this luminous, deeply moving book, Rogers reveals how she has helped many girls find expression and healing for the sexual trauma that has shattered their childhoods.

Rogers opens with a harrowing account of her own emotional collapse in childhood and goes on to illustrate its significance to how she hears and understands trauma in her clinical work. Years after her breakdown, when she discovered the brilliant work of French psychoanalyst Jacques Lacan, Rogers at last had the key she needed to unlock the secrets of the unsayable. With Lacan's theory of language and its layered associations as her guide, Rogers was able to make startling connections with seemingly unreachable girls who had lost years of childhood, who had endured the unspeakable in silence.

At the heart of the book is the searing portrait of the girl Rogers calls Ellen, brutally abused for three years by her teenage male babysitter. Over the course of seven years of therapy, Rogers helped Ellen find words for the terrible things that had happened to her, face up to the unconscious patterns through which she replayed the trauma, and learn to live beyond the shadows of the past. Through Ellen's story, Rogers illuminates the complex, intimate unraveling of trauma between therapist and child, as painful truths and their consequences come to light in unexpected ways.

Like Judith Herman's Trauma and Recovery and Kay Redfield Jamison's An Unquiet Mind, The Unsayable is a book with the power to change the way we think about suffering and self-expression. For those who have experienced psychological trauma, and for those who yearn to help, this brave, compelling book will be a touchstone of lucid understanding and true healing.

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In her twenty years as a clinical psychologist, Annie Rogers has learned to understand the silent language of girls who will not–who cannot–speak about devastating sexual trauma. Abuse too painful to put into words does have a language, though, a language of coded signs and symptoms that conventional therapy fails to understand. In this luminous, deeply moving book, Rogers reveals how she has helped many girls find expression and healing for the sexual trauma that has shattered their childhoods. Rogers opens with a harrowing account of her own emotional collapse in childhood and goes on to illustrate its significance to how she hears and understands trauma in her clinical work. Years after her breakdown, when she discovered the brilliant work of French psychoanalyst Jacques Lacan, Rogers at last had the key she needed to unlock the secrets of the unsayable. With Lacan’s theory of language and its layered associations as her guide, Rogers was able to make startling connections with seemingly unreachable girls who had lost years of childhood, who had endured the unspeakable in silence.At the heart of the book is the searing portrait of the girl Rogers calls Ellen, brutally abused for three years by her teenage male babysitter. Over the course of seven years of therapy, Rogers helped Ellen find words for the terrible things that had happened to her, face up to the unconscious patterns through which she replayed the trauma, and learn to live beyond the shadows of the past. Through Ellen’s story, Rogers illuminates the complex, intimate unraveling of trauma between therapist and child, as painful truths and their consequences come to light in unexpected ways.Like Judith Herman’s Trauma and Recovery and Kay Redfield Jamison’s An Unquiet Mind, The Unsayable is a book with the power to change the way we think about suffering and self-expression. For those who have experienced psychological trauma, and for those who yearn to help, this brave, compelling book will be a touchstone of lucid understanding and true healing.

1 I stood on the porch. Dark mesh screens rose fifteen feet high, divided by thin black iron poles that parceled the sky into parallelograms. Above me a ledge stuck out its tongue, dark and square, and made a long shadow all along one side of the porch. I had not spoken for over a month. I stood on the porch and saw everything in sharp relief. The silence pressed in on me and opened up with sound: keys in a remote hallway, feet shuffling on linoleum, a squirrel's scuffle across the bare ground into leaves three stories below. Nothing was expected of me. I lay down on a battered couch and studied the sky. Going into St. Vincent's Hospital was like walking into a dream--first you notice something you assume is only an inconsequential detail, but it turns out to be what is most important. The hospital's entrance was a stone arch. Inside, a fountain in the center of the foyer rose and fell. I heard angels singing in that fountain and was cheered. I called myself Joan (but answered to others calling me Annie) and knew myself to be Joan of Arc. I was glad that my messengers were here with me. In that moment my name faded out and hers remained on the screen, like a film credit. I did not expect locked doors. I stayed on the adolescent ward for a couple of weeks before being transferred to 2 North, the ward for the 'crazies,' 'chronics,' and 'psychotics' in the hospital. I didn't have the slightest idea why, and I noticed I was the only young person there. I was a patient in a private psychiatric hospital now, the kind of place you only have nightmares about--red brick, far from the road, bars on tall windows. It even had high turrets. It was there, as a sixteen-year-old girl, that I stopped speaking for five months, from October to February. I realized that whatever I might say could be misconstrued and used to create a version of 'reality' that would be unrecognizable, a kind of voice-over of my truths I could not bear. I embraced silence as though it were both protest and protection. As though, because in the end it was neither. It was early and still dark when the nurse entered my room and injected a burning stream into my thin upper arm. The routine was familiar. Within ten minutes my mouth was dry, my tongue enormous and clumsy. Then there was the long walk in my blue robe (a present from my mother) through the hospital tunnels with another nurse, who crooked her arm in mine as though I were her guide. And then we were there. The tunnel opened into an underground waiting room, lit with lamps, a relief from the fluorescence of the tunnel. At first I thought, 'Here are the grandparents,' because everyone there seemed unspeakably old. Then I saw that it was because they were all folded in on themselves, heads bent, chests concave, and breathing shallow. It was a waiting room, with magazines stacked neatly on a coffee table, but no one, no, not one person, was reading. To read is to be drawn away from the confines of the body and the present moment into another time and place. But everyone here was imprisoned in the immediate anguish that superseded the tedium of waiting, which might have, at another time, been relieved by reading. Minutes later I lay down on a gurney in a small room and surrendered my St. Christopher's medal from around my neck, assured that it would be returned later. Then came the tourniquet's pinch, my hand going numb even as I was told to 'make a fist.' A prick into vein, and then the tease, 'Count backwards from ten.' But the dizziness at seven and the solid blackness at five or four made it impossible. The...

Erscheint lt. Verlag 26.11.2008
Sprache englisch
Themenwelt Sachbuch/Ratgeber Gesundheit / Leben / Psychologie Partnerschaft / Sexualität
Geisteswissenschaften Psychologie Allgemeine Psychologie
Medizin / Pharmazie Medizinische Fachgebiete Psychiatrie / Psychotherapie
ISBN-10 0-307-49238-9 / 0307492389
ISBN-13 978-0-307-49238-8 / 9780307492388
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